Catching Feelings #5 – Heart Beat
I’ve always wondered how people fall in love. What is the sure way to know that you’re head over heels crazy about another person?
Whatever you do, don’t google it.
“She’s always on your mind”
“Your heartbeat quickens when they come to mind”
“You’re constantly finding ways to make them smile”
“You’re always thinking of them”
“You can’t get enough of them”
“You always want to talk to them or see them”
“You just know”
At this point, it’s safe to say that I am gone.
If love is a well, I’m deep inside.
My phone starts to ring almost immediately. I pick without looking at the Caller ID
The way she calls my name makes me melt inside because it’s everything I want to say to her. Mo fè.
I want you. Every gorgeous, precious part of you.
I want you in ways I’m too afraid to say.
I want you in ways I’ve never wanted anyone.
I swallow spit.
“Hey. What’s good”
“I slept off last night”
“No. I wasn’t sure how to reply”
“Do you know what I love you in igbo is?”
“I don’t think so. Will you tell me?”
“It is A huru’m gi naya. It means “I see you”
At this point, my heartbeat is twice the normal rate. Where is she going with this? I clear my throat so the words I am about to say come out clearly.
“So do you see me?”
“That’s not why I called”
“Why did you call?”
“To say yes”
“Yes to what?”
“Yes to lunch. And it’s not a date”
I fight the urge to scream the nonsense that’s hooking me in my throat.
“So are we going to circle back to the Ahumginaya thing?”
“That’s not the correct pronunciation but I’ll cut you some slack because of your nice voice”
I don’t know how to contain the smile that’s spreading on my face.
“You’re deflecting Amara”
“Fine. I’ve been just thinking and in a lot of ways, it feels like you see me. Like really see me”
Duh. I’m in love with you. But I don’t say this, instead I say
“You’re right. Is Friday fine for you? 2pm. I’ll text you the address”
“Yeah that’s fine”
“You could have just typed this yes sha. You had to call and be dramatic, so extra”
“I know. I’m trying to be like you”
“Lmao. If it were me, I wouldn’t have waited till the next day. I would have said yes straight away and not just to lunch. To everything”
“Your honesty amazes me”
“Life is too short to be lying”
She laughs and I swear, it is the cutest sound that you’ll ever hear.
I’m smiling like a fool at this point.
“Disclaimer. I’m photogenic. I look better in my pictures than in real life”
I sigh in my heart because even though I’ve never seen her, I know this is another lie that she believes about herself.
E sure me die that she’s not.
I look at my clock and mentally calculate how many hours it is till Friday.
43 hours, 30 minutes.
(To think that I used to hate maths)
Love will surprise you.